I found this idea online the other day when helping look for fun things to do in small group. Toilet Paper…seriously never thought my life would come to the point I was blogging about it but BEST IDEA EVER! We all have fears. Some are difficult to overcome while others just take a gentle nudge. I am going to use three of the BIG ones that I personally struggle with. These aren’t things like my irrational fear of the ocean, or my fear of public speaking. Those I can work up the courage to take on but the ones I chose are some things that I still have yet to figure out to squash.
The point of the toilet paper is to illustrate how we need to “flush our fears”. We have an amazing God that loves us. He’ll direct us in the way we need to go, sometimes we get lost on the path but somehow we get hit with a rock to head back to the trail. I wrote my three examples on some TP and used verses that help me through the thick of my issue.
I put my issue on the tissue hahahaha
if you didn’t find that funny…I’m sorry.
Oy! Aren’t we all on the struggle bus with failure and perfection? Maybe not, but if you’re not…you’re a rock star! I can’t tell you enough how hard I am on myself. I will obsessively comb over something to make sure it’s perfect. If it’s not, forget having me even entertain it. Now, I have really come a long way this past year with learning to let go and just enjoy the moment. Some of my favorite memories are the product of failures. Like the time I didn’t plan for traffic on a road trip and ignored my sons pleas for the bathroom (we’re talking a 3 year old, every other minute even after stopping). We got stuck in traffic and he had to pee in a Gatorade bottle. Yeah, to this day he laughs hysterically about it. At the time I felt like a failure of a mom because I didn’t stop when he asked repeatedly and I ignored his request because of his false bathroom cries. Then I felt like a failure because we were late, I didn’t plan for traffic. This is a light hearted example, I mean I could talk about the time I dropped out of college my first go because I couldn’t find my groove. I gave up before getting the kinks out. Or hey what about the other day when I lost my cool on my kids? That definitely was a mom fail!
“I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.”-Romans 8:18
“Then you will now the truth, and the truth will set you free”-John 8:32
“Jesus looked at them and said,”With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible”.”-Matthew 19:26
“Though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand”-Psalm 37:24
Now, these verses could easily go in all of the categories I made. To me they all speak of fear in general but I can relate it to my fear of failure. If I become so obsessed with what I believe is a failure am I really even aware of the great things God has planned in me? Not even close, nope not a chance! If I know the truth, if I truly know that meaning of Gods word then I will be free because I know outside of what I feel is a failure, God has an incredible plan for me and he is guiding me down that path. Some things don’t work out so better things can come. I think I have this, I got this. But why does it take something failing for me to FULLY rely on God? I am sure if I would let go and just rely on Him from the get go, life would be less…of a let down, disappointment, discouraging. All the icky feelings. Instead just feeling fulfilled in knowing with God all things are possible. I may falter but He holds me upright, and I need to dust off the failure and keep going. It can’t hold me back.
My husband can back this one up. When I am lose the sense of control I start to unravel. I want to have a plan and I want everything to go by that plan. Nothing happens outside of the plan. The plan, is the plan. Got it? See how I handle life outside of the plan? I don’t. Now, again I AM making progress! I am taking a few moments before the bells and whistles in my head start sounding off! I really think this is an issue all of us in some way deal with. I know I just like to make sure everything is done, and done correctly (That perfectionism is a beast). I am aware of the impact it has had on my children. When my son started school we couldn’t practice reading together because I was become frustrated which would cause him to completely shut down from me. Have you ever noticed when you want to be in control you tend to FORCE things to happen? Then those things tend to just crumble. I feel like that is our hard lesson. God is like Fine don’t listen to me watch what happens but I am here for you when that doesn’t work out. Then my beautiful plan just burns.straight.to.the.groud. POOF!
” And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose” – Romans 8:28
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God s with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:9
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” -Matthew 6:34
I can’t be in control because I didn’t create this plan. It’s not my plan to make. If I focus on what God has called me to do, good will come from it. Now if I shove a square in a triangle box, it won’t be good. One of my favorite verses is Joshua 1:9 because of a dear friend of mine. If something doesn’t work out does He want me to lose my hinges and just fall over? No, God wants us to be strong and courageous. If we’re really called to do something and it doesn’t work out, we need to stand tall and march on with Him at our core. I cannot lose myself in the woes of today and allow that to roll over into tomorrow. We have no control over what the next day brings so do not waste time trying to control what we cannot. I am talking about results, tests, jobs, school. We can do our best to have something workout but if it doesn’t we must not sweat it. I am HORRIBLE at allowing myself to stay up for HOURS at night worrying about something for the next day. So by the time it comes I am not only nervous but also sleep deprived, Go ME!
The best for last, right!? This one could sum up the others. Obviously if I am low functioning with failure and no control, the unknown straight up gives me the heeves. I will jump through hoops of fire to avoid the unknown. I don’t even like watching a movie without knowing how it ends. Probably strongly correlates with control and failure in that I will know what to expect and I can prepare myself best for it. I don’t like things coming out of left field socking me in the head. I don’t know anyone that really does enjoy it so hopefully this section is helpful to someone other than myself.
“The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” -Psalm 118:6
“Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you , do not worry about you life, what you will eat; or about your body,what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds.”- Luke 12:22-24
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”- Psalm 23:4
How hard is it to walk into a dark room? I know I wont! There is probably a serial killer or some venomous creature waiting for me. Something bad is going to happen if I can’t see it clearly. Then you read that verse in Psalm 118. What can man do to me? Man can take my life but I will spend eternity with my Lord and Savior. So what kind of way is it to live afraid of what is unknown? I can’t obsess over things that will be ok. I will have food, clothing, and shelter for the next day, shouldn’t that be enough? In the darkest of times it’s comforting knowing we have a God that will never leave us. Even though it may be new and scary, we’re never alone.
Have a blessed week. I hope you have all been enjoying this holiday season, spreading the true message of Christmas! Until next time!